hey. hey. see this? see it? it's a last-minute wossit so i don't miss a month. cause hey, that'd be lame.

i'm sorry, i've been busy. i know, i know, being busy is a really lame excuse, but . . seriously. busy. not always with Important or Deep things, like playing, loving, hating, enjoying, but mostly hating kotor 2. i also built myself a new home network! and i finished castlevania: symphony of the night, too! and lots and lots of other things like mystically getting incredibly ridiculously horrendously ill for a period of roughly the entire month.

the whole being sick thing has sorta pissed me off. i've done rather well with respriatory stuff over the past, ur, 15 or so years. no one cares, but when i was little, i went several rounds with the wonderful illness bronchitis. i have many many fond memories of - instead of spending my afternoons running around outside being a happy seven year old - sitting inside sucking down wonderful medication through a nebulizer and playing nintendo games. so anyways, after these past 12 or 15 or something like that years, i suddenly started coughing again. like, a lot. enough that i was told by many people that perhaps i should get that checked out. i, of course, did not get it checked out untill i coughed so much and for so long that i started vomiting and then coughing while i was vomiting and then also coughing while i was coughing. so much and for such an extended period of time that i apparently strained several hilariously underdeveloped muscles in my chest by doing so.

so anyways, my doctor has been less than enthusiastic about all of this. he threw some medication at me the first time i went in and said here, take some of this stuff, it'll help make your lungs be slightly less lame. i went back after i finished my trial run, told him it didn't seem to accomplish anything, and of course he gave me a five month supply and conveniently informed me that i probably also have some kind of magic not-quite-asthma, and i might get to be on medication for the rest of my life! hooray for the drug industry! hooray!

i suck at taking drugs, especially drugs i don't apparently need to function. i have a very simple set of instructions "inhale some of this shit twice a day". but . . i have no steady sleep schedule. what the hell am i suppsoed to do? i hit a weekend, and suddenly my "mornings" are at noon, and "before you go to bed" ends up around 4. am. and then what happens come monday? am i supposed to take it again when i wake up a mere three hours later at 0645? and what if i forget? i can't feel my lungs [or at least, can't anymore, now that my muscles appear to have healed], i don't have super ultra horrible real asthma, so it doesn't screw with me and i don't think about it. so i forget. i haven't managed to forget yet, but gee i sure come close very often. hopefully after a month of this stuff i can convince my doctor that i don't need to be on it.

i'm a healthy guy. for serious. i just feel like crap, all the time. for no particular reason. THE END! now, bring on march. [02.28.05@22:28]