i'm not quite sure why, but i'm feeling a bit off right now. i shouldn't be awake right now. i'm nearing 24 hrs. but i feel fine. i bet it has something to do with having marathon'ed most of legend of zelda earlier, which i'll probably finish in a few moments, after toast, if the decision decider feels like ruling in favor of the legend of zelda. otherwise i'll be starting a marathon anime session, in which i will finish watching everything i have on my hard drive right now.
i had a huge sappy post up here ready to go, but i decided to delete it. no matter how good i might feel [which is rather good right now], it just didn't feel right. even if i stuck some kind of nullification statement at the end. so i'll just be ackwardly wrapping this up now, so i can scuttle off to the decision decider to figure out my plans for the day, because dependency is fun! [01.10.04@09:41]
work work work. sure, i took my first proper vacation in, well, in as long as i can actually remember this month, but i'm still beat to hell and tired. it was nice to go do that. i may have to do it again some time.
apart from that, though, this month has been nothing but work. school work. home work. work-work. helping out with any number of different things around my house. all kinds of stuff. it's been really horrible to live on normal person time. i mean, really. it's awful to be awake on a time schedule that is not on my own terms. i like having control of that.
i've been finding a lot of time to read, but haven't been reading much. you try to make sense of that. reading quicksilver feels not unlike walking down the median of the interstate. sure, you're making progress. sure, you're getting somewhere. but you can't see your destination, can't even begin to mentally conceptualize your destination, you probably don't really know what you're doing out there walking down the interstate, and you probably don't really know where you're going anyways. you probably also didn't think the metaphor through before typing it out.
now, the work doesn't stop yet. in fact, the work is just starting to ramp up. i've been juggling three things for the past few weeks, now i get to start juggling a fourth, fifth, and if i feel dangerous a sixth. so here's my list, so i can keep track of things.