i love the fact that i spent last week getting all my accounts together on one server, and then that server starts having more down-time than usual. our good friends at interserver will be getting a call or two or thirty-eight later today on the subject. ps: welcome to march, maybe it'll suck less than february. [03.02.03@04:25]

my nonexistant sleeping schedule has really been getting to me lately. so has indecision. actually, no. for a change it isn't really indecision, it's lack of knowledge. i don't know where to find things. i don't have enough understanding of what i'm getting into to really make a good decision. i don't know if it's a lack of confidence, or a lack of experience, or a lack of . . some other thing . . i really don't know. but it seems like i'm moving forward anyways. i'm taking charge with things! i'm starting new projects! i'm plowing forward into uncharted territory!

i guess it's the same as it ever was. i've never really truly known what i'm getting myself into, how to compete, formal knowledge, stuff i should've covered, or just plain picked up by accident by now. i've always been like this. and i feel like i've come far enough by chance that starting from scratch to figure out how to do everything properly would be an astronomical waste of my time, considering that the only real gain would be a bit more confidence.

its nice to be able to talk about four or five different things just by leaving out the nouns. it means that if anything, i'm consistant. [03.11.03@03:52]