i think i may be ill. i just woke up, or . . fell back into consciousness. i'm not sure how long i was out. i was apparently sitting here, with cnn on in the background. i was sitting crosslegged, with my feet all folded up on themselves, with my keyboard on my knee. i was doing work. i had becky open in a window behind editpad, open to a message outlining what my client wanted added to his site, and how he wanted it formatted, and what raw images he had for me to format and add.

i apparently just folded over

i couldn't move at all when i fell back in. i somehow dodged my keyboard, so no page full of CRLF's. i had gone from my cross-legged sitting to fully leaned forward colapsed. with my arms clutched to my chest. i had lost feeling in all extremities, something which is happening often enough now that i don't consider it odd. my first thought wasn't "hey, it'd be nice if i could get some feeling going on, because this whole 'being-paralyzed' thing sucks", it was "when was the last time i can remember being conscious, i need it so i can go adjust my current invoice to count the work i did".

now i just feel like i ate something really bad. not like i'm going to go puke, but just . . bad. it'd be one thing if this was resulting in something, but it's just . . bad. ugh. so vague.

anyways, i'm still alive. i feel awful, but i'm here. sadly, not much has changed at all since my last update just over a month ago. except i got metroid prime, and now i'm using phoenix exclusively as my browser. at least i'll be doing something next week, seeing as people will actually be home. isaac and seb are hopefully going to be over here later in the week to see the wonders of metroid prime, which will no doubt end up ackward, because it'd be showing off a singleplayer game, and that just doesn't turn out well.

but it'll turn out ok. and hopefully a decent number of people will be around for my yearly somewhat-traditional mid-december party-like-event, despite the fact that i'm not really sure how to make an announcement about it, since no one reads the forums anymore. perhaps another mass-email will be required. oh well. time for some attempts at sleep. [11.25.02@06:00]