writing is hard.

no, really. i mean it.

oh, and my company's site launches in the next 24 hrs, because nell pisses me off. can't be having talentless 14 year old hacks stealing the thunder from the real magical interweb prodigies, y'know. and while i'm finishing up all this content, i get to work on getting projects for ids working. projects which WERE working, untill someone screwed them all up. heads will roll tomorrow. er. today. and then tomorrow-tomorrow i have some kind of meeting that hasn't been explained to me, but i know it's happening because my clie wills it so.

it's interesting, all this time i thought that as soon as i wasn't in school, i'd be completely out of things to do. and yet, now that i'm here, out of school for a semester, i'm the busiest i've been in my life. it feels good accomplishing things. churning out designs left and right. working one night from 1700 till 0600, then nabbing some food in an hour, and turning right back around to work from 0700 till 1200. and then moving a bit, and working again from 1400 till some ungodly hour to get a site launched.

i always thought i these kind of hours would lead me to burnout, but it's exactly the opposite, it feels like they're leading me to meaning.

ps: if you run ie6, and don't have xp, or don't plan on upgrading to xp service pack 1, go get ie6: service pack 1. works on all platforms where you'd be running ie6, and it adds several nice little things, as well as patching security issues. it also adds real CSS box-object-model implementation. not quite to the point of supporting png's [DAMN YOU MICROSOFT! JUST IMPLEMENT PNG! IT WON'T FUCKING HURT, JUST DO IT!], but hey, it's a start. oh, and don't worry about stability, i've been running ie6sp1 for nearly a month now without incident. [09.17.02@03:32]

ok, so maybe not 24 hrs. possibly 24 hrs of being awake. which means i still have twelve to go. content for my company's site should be done in the next few hours. then it's just a matter of running it past several people to check for coherency. then we launch.

protip for cnn headline news, use a real font, ok? it'll save embarrassments like this.

i finished my immediate book queue a few minutes ago. starting back in . . oh . . gee . . last year? i started re-reading card's ender series. the original re-read of ender's game, speaker for the dead, xenocide, and children of the mind started in january, and ended in may shortly after returning home. most of these books were read on flights, or on the bus, or waiting for class in the basement of southwick.

when i got home, i suddenly realized that shadow puppets, book three of the shadow series, was scheduled for a mid-august release. well, that meant i had to re-read the first two books of the shadow series to be ready for the third. i thoroughly enjoyed my second time through. it takes a good two or three trips through a book by card to really let everything soak in. when shadow puppets came out, i found myself only halfway through shadow of the hegemon. i continued reading, and found myself noticing many of the more subtle things. finally, in early september, i finished shadow of the hegemon and moved on to shadow puppets.

as i said earlier, i finished it a few minutes ago. quite a good novel. like pretty much everything, it was different enough to set it off on its own, but closer to shadow of the hegemon than anything else. it felt kinda like xenocide and children of the mind, where they were both distinctly different books, but felt like at some point they were one idea. the first takes you halfway. to a logical stopping point, but not finished. thats how these middle books came out. as for where [or when] card takes us with the possible final extension of ender's game, well, that won't be known for another two years or so. and hell, we might get a movie by then. won't that be frightening, mm? [09.18.02@04:54]

i generally don't endorse shows from mtv. most of the time i bitch about how awfully awful they are. but today i have to break that. the latest incarnation of week in rock, "the wrap", premiered ur . . today? right now? well, it's the same as it always has been, except it doesn't take itself seriously. this is a Good Thing. the world would be a better place if many of us just stopped being stuck up and started being normal.

examples? well. . . they just had a bit about eminem's new quasi-autobiographical-movie. they put forth a detailled analysis of it, and explained how it is effectively just flashdance. flashdance. they did a point by point comparison, and it fits. they also apparently tried telling eminem about this outstanding discovery, and he yelled at them.

it gets better.

then they extrapolated that "perhaps this will bring about an onslaught of other autobiographical movies", and followed through by putting together a fake trailer. their subject was avril lavigne. it railed on her heavily, and is certified comedy ytterbium.

oh. well, fuck. apparently it's mtv2 only. fuck you, time warner. put mtv2 on basic cable. well now i'm pissed, but i have unreal tournament 2003 in my download queue, so i think it'll be ok. [09.28.02@10:05]