here i am again. sitting here alone. watching what dreams may come. yet another movie that is good, powerful, and incredibly depressing. i love the movie, but i hate what it does to me. i'm just broken that way, i guess.

also: i hate the sound of people eating. i hate the sound of metal on teeth. i hate the sound of anything tearing.

i'm also here observing the most outstanding conversation ever in #jedi-knight. a selection for your perusal:

no, the turtles were simply pawns to preserve the status quo, they had lost touch with the will of the proletariat.
they were fighting to preserve the antiquated system of libertarian capitalism imposed by the ultra-rightists government who simply used their existance as a focal point to draw attention away from the economic failures of new york city at the time.
then shredder was the voice of the proletariat? i think he was a flash in the pan so-to-speak showing the proles and easy way out only through the hard work that the turtles were able to accomplish could society truly become better
hard work? they just sat in a sewer, ate pizza, and then decided occasionally to pick on some innocent idealists who harboured revolutionary thoughts.
hey now that pizza had shitloads of anchovies

i think i also like what dreams may come because it spends quite a bit of time discussing philosophy. when it boils down, philosophy and design are all i'm really good at. everything else i fake my way through. but philosophy and design, i'm there. and i guess what dreams may come has all of that. but it's depressing.

so what does this leave for me? [07.01.02@20:21]

i finally acquired both rahxephon soundtracks yesterday. very very good stuff. jazz-ish, electronic-ish, overall very very good. and lots of piano. i can't wait to get my hands on the latest chunk of army propaganda, slated for release in a few hours. i'll probably get an hour or so of NWN in while i wait. or just sit here leeching shit off usenet. i think i'll go with that option. mmm. leeching. [07.03.02@23:26]

i hate running into limitations. really pesky dealing with stuff like them. and they're everywhere, too.

oh well. i'll find a way around. i always do. [07.17.02@00:35]