nearly a month lost. or was it a month gained. it was a month full of waiting. a month full of fears. a month full of questioning. a month full of confusion. hatred. destruction. everything.

but its over now.

i realized just now as i was sitting here thinking. i'm just like everyone else. i like to think i'm somehow special because of what i do. mainly because occasionally people say i am.

but i'm not.

i'm just someone seen in passing.

one to listen to as a last resort.

not someone to wait for. not someone to follow. not someone to pursue.

just someone. [09.22.01@02:18]

i've now had a chance to pretty much get everything straightened out. i just need a nice big pillow for my back. tonight as i was beating chronotrigger for the 11th time, i realized that i still had my amazon account set to ship things to tampa. so i went through and fixed that. i also added a few things to my wishlist, like memento. i need a copy of memento. erik rented it on friday, and it was incredibly fuggen l33t. i've watched it four times since. ugh. anywyas, i need to fall over now. my back hurts like hell. and i have class in . . eight hours. [09.24.01@02:06]

i'd forgotten how good of a song everything in its right place is. though, at the moment i'm desperately trying to convince myself to pay attention, understand, and agree with the weezer song photograph. but . . . thats just me.

today i get to do the good part of my job. finding people and telling them that they've been accepted. but for some reason i feel like a dipshit doing it in person. it doesn't feel right. but i have to do it that way, if i can find her today.

in other news, one of my roommates might be giving up and withdrawing, due to his incredibly shite luck from over the past few weeks. i don't blame him. in three weeks, he's had over $2,000 of stuff stolen from his cars [yes. two cars. both were broken into within the span of three days], now one of his cars is being taken away because he was informed that it was stolen property, and now he's having his licence revoked. aces for him. means this turns into a double, for awhile at least. [09.27.01@10:50]