moving right along. today's problem is dancing around things. i cant stand when people dangle things infront of me, and then withold the meaty part. i hate this because i have trouble dropping things like that. if i'm told part of something, my brane immediatly tries to fill in the rest. i dont know, it just annoys me, cause i can't control it. i know at times i can be elusive, and dance around subjects, but after awhile i cave in. and anways, most of the time there its just when i drop into speaking completely in metaphor, so theres a chance of the person i'm speaking to understanding. but this, this is just wrong.

at 20:03.35 today i recieved this. its addressed to jeff, but that doesnt mean anything now, considering how lax i've become with my name. i cant stand things like this. yeah, i'm going to be shallow and piss off people potentially unrelated to the situation because an e-mail told me to. no, of course not. i'd *never* do that. no, i'd bring it up here as i am now, and say the following: i have roughly six months left here. if you have something to say, say it. i dont care how considering how many mediums are available, just dont hide. cause that pisses me off.

there. now that thats done, i'm moving along and getting some sleep because i feel like shite. ps: buy me things. [12.03.00@21:03]

wow. i feel special. but i'm not allowed to talk about why for another two weeks. oh well. [12.18.00@12:36]

right! 'nk you, krissen!! for all of you other slacke^Wwilling participants in making me feel better, my amazon.com wish list is still there. furthermore, almost everything on there is under $20 [they're almost all dvd's], and will ship pretty much immediately. so no worries about getting 'em here by friday. and don't forget about the preorders! furthermore, all the dvd's are guaranteed to show up by the day after my birthday. and all the preorder stuff [like shadow of the hegemon] will be rushed out to my house here at skizzers world headquarters as soon as its made available. so. yes. please, go consume. and please use the actual built-in add to cart thing, cause it removes the item from my wish list without you having to tell me you bought it. [12.18.00@14:31]

well thats over with. i should really be wandering down the hall to get some sleep. supposedly i have several things to do tomorrow, involving such wonderful excercizes as return fraud at circuit city, reading, passing the duty of answering the same damn questions over and over and over to my cousins, more reading, sleeping, convincing my parents to let me start working on ff9, etc etc etc. full day. absolutely lovely. and how much of it should i really be doing? none. i waste more time than anyone. its what i'm good at. i'm good at putting things off indefinently, and pretending the obligation doesnt exist. i'm also good at doing things i regret. in any account, its time for this design to go away. i know theres nothing wrong with it, but it needs to go. i believe i've said this before, i can't stand for things to stay the same for too long. as per usual, i'll have it ready to launch on the first. earlier, if you've all been good boys and girls. its time for shift, too. organization-wise. expect me to be consolidating bits, shifting things around, nuking things, etc. i'll be in that kind of mood. but dont expect it any time in the immediate future. cause i'm going to have useful things like ff9 to get in the way. [12.24.00@01:11]

after much kicking, i finally got a beta of my page kicking in netscape, mozilla, and ie5.5. all thats really left is the final tweaking of the design, and then porting everything over. both should take all of 5 minutes. and i have a whole 3 days to slack off now! yaaay! [12.29.00@03:16]

i decided to go in and add another wossname to the page. shifted things around a bit, added a few more functions, and added another layer in. now it does.. uh.. shiny things in mozilla. but only when the page is long. so. urm. we'll be tracking down josh, and hoping he can fix the poor thing. see, this is why i hate mozilla. i can find *several* ways to do something in ie, and all of them break mozilla.

well, anyways, time for a pick-up game of tetrinet. [12.30.00@01:00]

well, i would have the site updated and ready to launch today, but josh seems to fallen off the face of the earth, or is currently in transit. so, it'll be waiting untill josh gives it a once-over. so, yeah. off i go to sit around and play ff9 a bit more before recording the ball-drop. [12.31.00@21:55]