[ mood | numb ]
[ music | silence. ]
i found out about some really lame things that someone said. things that i already knew, i guess... but they weren't confirmed. and so it didn't hurt as much.
wait... yes it did. it hurt just as much... but i feel like things have been spinning. spinning out of control at this incredible speed... like those scenes in movies where everything is a blur and the noise around you just turns into one chaotic buzz. and all of a sudden it stops. it goes black... and there's not a single sound... not until someone says that one liner that breaks the silence for effect.
when i actually heard what was said; when i heard the quote - not the paraphrase, not the hint, not the buffered version... the quote. when i heard that... that's when everything screeched to a halt. and there was no one liner. just sadness.
no one liners....
not yet, anyways.
this is what it means to lose your right to your character. this is also reiterating what it means to give up your right to be right. but there is also something in here that you weren't expecting, Court. you didn't know it... but you also gave up your right to be loved. loved by anyone but Me.
is it enough?
given the circumstances... i sure hope so...
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